Here I Am, Send Me Part 3: Pushing Through (Faith)

Here I Am, Send Me Part 3: Pushing Through (Faith)

In the previous reading we examined Abraham and the concepts of Faith and Action briefly. Now, let us consider Moses.

Both of these examples – Moses and Abraham – were men called at different times in the history of Israel for different reasons – called for a specific reason, time and place.

Moses was called to act as the saving arm of God – to lead the Israelites out of their Egyptian captivity.

Let’s examine Moses.

His name means “Saved from Water”. I am always astounded by the Biblical names and what they mean – a name, in Jewish culture it would seem, means a lot.

His name is perfect since it serves as a testimony to the fact of who he is – he was saved from a watery death, taken up from the Nile where he was drifting in his basket, by the Pharaoh’s daughter.

It all went down like this:

Up until the death of Joseph – who you might remember as the guy in the Technicolor dreamcoat – the Israelites were pretty happy, growing strong and numerous, apparently making up quite a large part of the Egyptian population. Unfortunately, after Joseph and his generation had died out, a new Pharaoh arose, one who did not know Joseph, and he saw the Israelites as a threat.

And so the children of Israel were plunged into slavery, drawn into a situation of oppression and tyranny. In Ex 1:8-14 we find that they were ‘afflicted’ with ‘heavy burdens’. They became the menial workforce, God’s chosen people building cities for a heathen king. We also find, in v. 12 that the more the Israelites were oppressed, the more they multiplied, and the Egyptians feared them. So, in Ex 1:15-22: the Pharaoh institutes a decree, declaring that all the sons born to the Hebrews are to be cast into the Nile.

Moses is born after the decree has been set, and his mother kept him for three months before letting him go. Pharaoh’s daughter found him and adopted him as her own. By God’s providence (divine intervention) the adversary was ultimately brought down by his own daughter.

When Moses had come of age and was a man he became aware of his people’s suffering, became aware of their burden, and after killing an Egyptian, and Pharaoh finding out about his transgression, he fled to Midian, and took a wife (Zipporah, daughter of Jethro, the priest of Midian).

Exodus 2:23-25 (KJV)

23 And it came to pass in process of time, that the king of Egypt died: and the children of Israel sighed by reason of the bondage, and they cried, and their cry came up unto God by reason of the bondage. 24 And God heard their groaning, and God remembered his covenant with Abraham, with Isaac, and with Jacob. 25 And God looked upon the children of Israel, and God had respect unto [them].

In the ESV that last part reads: God saw the people of Israel – and God knew. God not only knew their situation but also knew how He was going to deliver them…

Meanwhile, while the people of Israel were groaning and grumbling, Moses was tending to the flock of his father-in-law. He led his flock to the west side of the wilderness and came to Horeb, the mountain of God. The angel of the Lord appeared to Him, in the form of burning bush, and Moses went to investigate. When the Lord saw that he had turned aside to see, he started a dialogue with Moses, and the promise of salvation was made.

Exodus 3:21-22: (KJV)

And I will give this people favour in the sight of the Egyptians: and it shall come to pass, that, when ye go, ye shall not go empty: But every woman shall borrow of her neighbour, and of her that sojourneth in her house, jewels of silver, and jewels of gold, and raiment: and ye shall put [them] upon your sons, and upon your daughters; and ye shall spoil the Egyptians.

After much doubt and a spot of low self-esteem, Moses returns to Egypt. The Lord tells Aaron to meet him in the wilderness, and they met at the mountain of God. Moses shared everything with Aaron, and together they went before the elders of Israel. Israel believed and worshipped God!

Moses and Aaron then went before Pharaoh, and confronted him. Pharaoh is angered and increases the workload of the Israelites, causing much doubt and irritation. The people of Israel are now angry, and Moses is made fully aware of their resentment. Moses also starts questioning the purpose God has for him, and the promise of deliverance.

Our God is an awesome God, in the face of adversity His people prosper! God reassures Moses and once again reaffirms the promise of salvation.

The two brothers once again went before Pharaoh. Pharaoh, on this occasion, seeks proof, and demands a sign. Aaron cast down his staff before Pharaoh and his servants and it became a serpent.

The magicians of Egypt however duplicated this effect, also turning their staffs into serpents, but God is all-powerful and none can stand before Him. Aaron’s staff swallowed their staffs.

The fact that Aaron’s serpent devoured the others can be seen as a sign to the probably arrogant magicians, something along the lines of – ‘my God is bigger than your god…’

Pharaoh, however, still refused to heed their request, and his heart was hardened. So began the ten plagues in Egypt. During the first nine Pharaoh continued to disobey and lie, and after the final plague he gave in, his will broken, he chased them from Israel. In Exodus 3:21-22 the promise is made and in Exodus 11:2 it is fulfilled – Israelites are given favor in the eyes of the Egyptians. God makes a distinction between the Israelites and the people of Egypt, and The Passover is instituted.

After all that had to be done was done, at midnight, the Lord struck down all the firstborn in the

land of Egypt. Pharaoh summoned Moses and Aaron by night and told them to take their people and leave. Thus the children of Israel journeyed, and eventually (approximately two months after they took their leave from Egypt), arrived at Mount Sinai.

What strikes me as the most important thought here, after we read the success story, this tale of victory, is his reluctance to serve the Lord and his ongoing doubts and fears throughout. God appears to him and says – Moses, you are going to free my people!

But Moses replies, and eloquent as ever says: Huh? Me?

But the Lord won’t relent and continues – Moses, you will go before Pharaoh and you will convince him to let my people go.

Moses asks: But, Lord, who am I to go to Pharaoh? (And we can almost hear the doubt and fear in his voice.)

The Lord, faithful as ever answers: I will be with you.

In a sense God is saying – be still and know I am God, I am with you – there’s no reason for fear, no reason to be afraid. You are my representative and you will speak nothing but My word – don’t fret, don’t fear, just do what I command you to do – My plan is fail safe and fool-proof. My plan is prosperous.

And Moses, still doubtful and fearing, cries out – Lord, they will not believe me! They will call me a liar!

He’s looking for excuses as his heart cries out saying – I am just a man – with flaws and failures, I can’t do it!

The Lord however says: What is in your hand?

And all Moses has is a rod, a staff… the Lord then goes on to show him how He can use the mundane and ordinary to be extraordinary and miraculous.

All Moses has is a mustard seed of faith – taking a chance – believing the promise of God: I WILL BE WITH YOU. A little bit of faith that God can use the mundane and ordinary to do extraordinary and miraculous things.

Tonight the Lord is saying – It doesn’t matter who you are. Whether you’ve been a liar or an absolute saint, whether you’ve been a thief or a priest – I can use what you have for MY glory.

He says, bring you sorrow, bring your pain, your brokenness – I will use it to establish Myself as the Mighty Savior, the Name above all Names – I will use your flaws and failures, your scars and wounds, to change your life and bless you and those around you.

I have a plan for you, and you don’t have to be afraid, because I know who you are – I am fully aware of what you are and aren’t capable of, and My plan is tailored specifically and uniquely for you.

Take the little bit of faith that you have in your hand right now – that mustard seed of faith – and watch God multiply and increase it through your trust and obedience.

Do as Moses did and have some faith – push through your doubt and fear – put your trust in the One who say ‘I AM’, because ‘HE IS’ everything!

Reflect:

1. What doubts and fears do you have at the moment in regards to your calling? In Exodus 3 and Joshua 1 God makes a very specific promise to His servants. What is this promise and how does this answer your doubts? How does this still your fear?

2. Are there any other promises in God’s Word that you can hold onto to bolster your faith and carry you through? Make a list of these promises and put it somewhere you can see it and be reminded of it daily.

3. When it comes to taking action in regards to our calling it can seem overwhelming at first – we can see the Promised Land of God’s Call, but we often don’t know where to begin. God tells Moses to use what is in his hand. What do you have in your hand right now? This could be resources, contacts, knowledge, skills, talents – even your testimony – what do you have that you can use to make a difference today?

Prayer: Today Lord, give me the assurance that You are with me. Quiet me with Your great love – give me peace. I pray that You will direct me – all my resources and all of my efforts – towards fulfilling the calling You have prepared for me. Show me what it is I can do for You today. Let me be an instrument of Your love and mercy, an ambassador of Your Kingdom, in all of my coming and going – in Jesus Name. Amen.

Indescribable: Worship Devotional

Indescribable: Worship Devotional

“Indescribable, uncontainable
You placed the stars in the sky
And You know them by name
You are amazing, God” 

                               Indescribable, Chris Tomlin

Then the Lord spoke to Job out of the storm. He said:
2 “Who is this that obscures my plans
    with words without knowledge?
3 Brace yourself like a man;
    I will question you,
    and you shall answer me.

                               Job 38:1-3:  

Much of the Old Testament is about wrestling with God. It is about the struggle of getting to grips with and trying to understand God.

I often tell people that doubt is not the opposite or the absence of faith. Moses had his doubts, so did Jeremiah – Joshua had so much doubt that God had to tell him 3 times in the span of just 4 verses to be strong and courageous. 

Doubt is not the same as unbelief. When we doubt we are engaging in a questioning of our faith – and this can often lead us deeper into the heart of God. Doubt becomes a lens through which we often go searching for God. 

It is when we leave our doubts unaddressed and let them fester that it becomes unbelief.

J.D. Greear said the following: ‘Faith is not the absence of doubt; it is continuing to follow Jesus in the midst of doubt.’

Having questions and having doubts is a thing we all have to contend with. But faith means enduring, pushing through and taking those doubts to God.

In the book of Job we see a man going through some very real ‘stuff’. 

Job is described as a Godly man – a man of faith and justice. A good man. 

In fact, he is such a good man that the devil challenges God in regards to the purity of his faith. “Job only trusts You and worships You because You have favoured him.”

God permits Satan to tempt Job – and so his tribulations start. Job loses his wealth, his family and his health – he loses everything. Even his wife tries to convince him to denounce God – to give up and die. Job refuses and endures.

Poetically Job’s questioning of his life and faith are expressed. His doubts and concerns speak loud. So loud that God challenges Job.

God asks Job in chapter 38:4-7:

4 “Where were you when I laid the earth’s foundation?
    Tell me, if you understand.
5 Who marked off its dimensions? Surely you know!
    Who stretched a measuring line across it?
6 On what were its footings set,
    or who laid its cornerstone—
7 while the morning stars sang together
    and all the angels[a] shouted for joy?”

God continues to question Job – and this goes on for quite a few chapters. Hard questions. Questions with answers that only God has.

In all of this Job is confronted with his own lack of understanding – the constraints of his own wisdom and knowledge – but also comforted by the revelation of God’s limitlessness and infinite power.

God tells Job – just like He told Joshua – to be strong. There is a caveat to this though – we can only be strong in Him.

I’ve gone through situations where I couldn’t share what I was going through. I didn’t know where to begin to tell what was wrong, I was unable to put it into words, and even if I had the words my courage would fail me and I would stay silent. 

Sometimes our troubles, our trials and our tribulations are too big for us to even describe. They seem gigantic – like a Behemoth (Job 40:15-24) or a Leviathan (41:1-11) – but God…

God pierces the nose of Behemoth and makes it a pet, and pulls Leviathan out with a fishhook and makes it beg for mercy.

Job accepts his own lack of understanding – he takes his doubts and gives them to God.

And in doing that God answers. 

The Pharisees in the New Testament had ‘no doubts’. They believed they had God figured out. 

Those who didn’t have it all figured out found Jesus. 

It’s okay if you don’t have it all figured out today. It’s okay to have doubts, fear and uncertainties – in fact, as the book of Job demonstrates – actually, as much of the Old Testament demonstrates – God welcomes those who have questions. 

Because the answer is always God.

Share your doubts and questions with mature Christians, trusted elders and servant-leaders – and it will become the path towards growth and maturity in your own faith. 

Share your doubts with God. 

I’ve gone through situations where I would lay awake at night crying “why God?” 

And He always answered.

He will always answer.

The God who hung every star in the sky – who knows each one by name – knows YOU by name.

He sees you. 

He knows you.

He loves you.

Ask today and He will answer.

Job called out. He asked. God answered – God restored.

He will do the same for you.

Prayer: Lord, today I come with all of my questions, my doubts, my fears and insecurities – the things that I struggle to put into words, those niggly things that gnaw away at my resolve to follow you – and I lay them all down. I lay them down at Your feet. I might not know what to do next, I might not know where to go – and in those moments I will choose to go to You. When I don’t understand the things I am going through I will trust in the fact that You do. I will come to You with my questions and believe that You will answer. Give me the strength to endure and the patience to wait upon Your Word. Let my doubts and fears becoming stepping stones towards a deeper faith in You. Give me peace in the midst of my storm. And when I look up at the stars in the night sky, Lord, remind me of Your great love for me. In Jesus name. Amen.